Struggling...

I’m struggling not to worry & would appreciate your prayers…

I just found out that the hourly work that Ben has had this winter is coming to an end. We knew this work wouldn’t last forever & have been truly blessed to have it. We’re at a point now where we have less than a week of work left & nothing else lined up. To make it through this winter paying business bills we have exhausted virtually all of our back up. I have come to the conclusion that in this time of economic uncertainty, being self employed is not fun. Not only can we not claim EI to at least get a little income, but we have all the business bills on top of regular personal bills. So what do we do? Drop the business & get a desk job? Ben is trained in construction, not office work…& the whole construction industry is taking a hit. We have no choice but to trust…but that doesn’t make it any easier! It takes an extra measure of faith, that right now I don’t feel like I have.

What’s your plan now Lord? Please help me to trust you. Help me not to forget like the Israelites did, what you’ve done for us in the past & how you’ve provided for us in the past. I am reminded of the night last year that Ben left work in Your hands…praying that we would wake up in the morning & have work. It was so fun to get that phone call at 8:00 the next morning with work to start that day! I know you CAN do that Lord…but the human in me doubts & worries “what if You don’t this time”…yet I know that even if You choose not to work in that way this time, You will still take care of us. Please Jesus, take away my unbelief & replace it with Your peace that surpasses all understanding. Guide us in knowing what steps to take. Unite us as a couple and as a family. I pray that you would bring us closer together through this. Most of all help us to honor you & give all the glory to You as You provide for us each & every day.