Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Struggling...

I’m struggling not to worry & would appreciate your prayers…

I just found out that the hourly work that Ben has had this winter is coming to an end. We knew this work wouldn’t last forever & have been truly blessed to have it. We’re at a point now where we have less than a week of work left & nothing else lined up. To make it through this winter paying business bills we have exhausted virtually all of our back up. I have come to the conclusion that in this time of economic uncertainty, being self employed is not fun. Not only can we not claim EI to at least get a little income, but we have all the business bills on top of regular personal bills. So what do we do? Drop the business & get a desk job? Ben is trained in construction, not office work…& the whole construction industry is taking a hit. We have no choice but to trust…but that doesn’t make it any easier! It takes an extra measure of faith, that right now I don’t feel like I have.

What’s your plan now Lord? Please help me to trust you. Help me not to forget like the Israelites did, what you’ve done for us in the past & how you’ve provided for us in the past. I am reminded of the night last year that Ben left work in Your hands…praying that we would wake up in the morning & have work. It was so fun to get that phone call at 8:00 the next morning with work to start that day! I know you CAN do that Lord…but the human in me doubts & worries “what if You don’t this time”…yet I know that even if You choose not to work in that way this time, You will still take care of us. Please Jesus, take away my unbelief & replace it with Your peace that surpasses all understanding. Guide us in knowing what steps to take. Unite us as a couple and as a family. I pray that you would bring us closer together through this. Most of all help us to honor you & give all the glory to You as You provide for us each & every day.

4 comments:

Cheri said...

I am praying for you sis!

Beckie & Trevor Muirhead said...

Praying with you...

Anonymous said...

Oh Heidi, we have been there and done that so many times in our lives during the past 25 years. God has ALWAYS been faithful to supply, sometimes through unexpected work opportunities, but also many times through bizarre ways of his own choosing. Our prayers go with you that you and Ben will truly see the love and compassion of your Lord as he provides for your family in magnifcent ways you can't even yet imagine. We learn trust from throwing ourselves on his mercy in such times and his love becomes ever more apparent.
The Lord be with you in peace. Sue and Dell

Fischer's said...

Will be praying...xoxox